LaLa Kent he will never forget the pain of losing a father.
In April 2019, the Vanderpump Rules The star said goodbye to her father and shared on Instagram that her life had “crumbled”. As a way to get through the grief, LaLa said she started drinking non-stop from morning to night.
“It’s how I was dealing,” the Bravo star shared exclusively with E! News. “When I went on a binge I believe it was three or four days straight, I woke up with that feeling of being out of control, not knowing what I’d done, just guilt and shame and b ‘in what it is. moment I said I’m taking my life back. I’m not living another day like this.”
Now, the 32-year-old is celebrating three years and 11 months of sobriety. She is also celebrating National Recovery Month by sharing her story in hopes of encouraging those in need.
Previously, LaLa said she would go out for a night on the town and not be able to remember what happened the next day. But now, as a mother to 17 months old Oceanthe reality star says she is “present for every moment” of life, including all of her daughter’s milestones.
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“It’s amazing that my baby will never see me change,” she said. “I have to sit here and I just remember her hands or the first time we went to a barbecue and she went into the pool. I remember every detail.”
She also said that she is more careful when she films Vanderpump Rules. According to the Bravo star, she takes a hit with an audition and is “not that quick to get in.” At the same time, if someone says something she doesn’t agree with, “I’m popping up.”
“I have this internal battle all the time because my line of work doesn’t reflect what my program represents,” she explained. “I’m going into this environment and I’m speaking the truth, but at the same time, I’m going into these rooms where it’s all about being a better person. It’s a conflict.”
Over the past three years, Lala said her co-stars past and present – including Stassi Schroder, Katie Maloney and Scheana Marie– she supported her sobriety.
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“It’s nice when people take a step back and realize, ‘Wow! Lala goes into every minute without any liquid to calm her nerves,'” Lala shared. “I would say that those three have been incredible since I started this journey.”
Earlier this month, Stassi and Katie joined Lala in receiving the Spirit of Sobriety Award from the Brent Shapiro Foundation, a non-profit whose mission is to save lives through awareness and effective programs that encourage children to abstain from drugs and alcohol.
Although she was the honoree for a special evening, Lala said credit was due to the high school students who were working on their own sobriety at the event.
“We all say that the youth is our future,” she said. “I really look at them differently, especially since I became a mother. I don’t know of any other foundation that does what the Brent Shapiro Foundation does.”
She may be the youngest member Lala hopes to impress on her own daughter. As Ocean grows into a young girl, her mom hopes she knows that women have all the power in the world.
“If you want something, you will definitely find it,” she said, recalling the advice she gives. “The hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life is the proudest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I hope when she grows up, she sees that she can truly do anything in the world all.”
And when Lala starts thinking about what her father would say about her progress, she can’t help but light up.
“I know he’s just beaming up there,” she said. “Although I miss him so much, he is working for me up there. The blessings that have come into my life since my father left, I will thank him many times.”
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